these terrible hungers.... these shameful needs.
Craving hot cheeseburgers on which you wish to feed.
You know that it will make you fat and clog your arteries,
Make your heart a grease-filled vat, your veins as thick as trees.
Yet even though I know all these, predictions come to pass,
you order it with extra cheese and stuff your big fat ass. :D
ROUND ROUND ALREADY. :(

you married a porky, lazy pig
Whose life you cannot save. hahaaa.
I choked on my bread,
and then they made me eat pig.Hah. As if.
Gosh, why did I even think of that -.-"
sometimes I dream that i am different, I could be a pig,
and no-one would tell me. OINK OINK.

I have a handsome cat.
My cute cat is REALLY handsome
He likes to eat and sleep and play with his pillow,
And roll, dance, and other things!

While he eats, he doesn't chew.
He is my fat cat and he looks a lot like me. LOL :X
He can fly and swim. He can talk and burp.
rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr!
Don't look at my cat that way or he'll EAT you!
Okay...fine..this entry is kinda dumb. Or a good one at least,
My cat is handsome. That's all that matters. :D~

Do you remember anything? like how much you mean to me
or the story of how we met.If you can hear me, do listen dearly.
Time is hell. I lived well. Now I have to move further.

YEAH! My hair! hahaha. LIKE BOOM! hahaha. Goodness.
Yes Yes. And as usual, my hairstylist, will nag non-stop at me.
For not combing my hair and all that. Sheesh. What for? When I know
he's going to pamper my hair right? Hahahaha. :X
Love you guys from T&G. So far, no regrets or whatsoever. :D
ERHEM! apart from chopping my hair off. -.-
Another modeling deal...soon. But not now. Maybe next year. YAY|
For now..I will simply enjoy my free pampering packages with you guys.
Been almost 2 years already. Fun! Very fun indeed. Malcomn & Keane
I'm not going to allow you to CHOP my hair! GRrrrrrRrr.
After the wash, trim and blow. :D I'm a happy girl again! hahaha
Tried all of their new products of hair treatments. YUM! :X

Anyways....hrmm...all it takes is one thing,
To start it all, and not to forget....a string of emotions,
It is like a wall that I have to jump over.And when I do,
it is a happy moment, a rare moment,each moment is cherished.
It all started....initially with all the negative things.....
Blur, bland, so now, I can not comprehend,where it starts
where it ends.My reflection, shadow,it makes it so hard to smile.
It always takes a while for the depression to fade. But I know it will.
I just cant wait for that day.I know it is soon.....But, is it soon enough?
hahaha. Yeah. Everything's going to be alright if we work harder! :D
Do you remember me? The way things used to be?

You read my words, but do you know me, know me?
You hear me,but do you know me?
There's only so much we can know of ourselves....hrmmm...
there's only so much we can know of one another. Yeah?
There's only so much we can take at a time too.There's only so much
we can remember, and hence....do you remember me..?
When I sang you a song... that made you smile? hahahaa :X
Do you remember those simple seconds, when all we did was hold hands and beckon
for all the love we could give and receive,and remember everything that you can retrieve?
I remember those specific moments...when we were in love and full of comments
about who we feel and fell in love especially all those magical times when we fit like a fit.
Eh....-.- fit like a fit. I don't know why the hell did I typed that. Hahaha.
I've got another interview to teach in schools! Recommendations from
my lecturers. YUM! hahaha. The results of being a wonderful student.
A PLACE TO LIVE IN, TRANSPORT plus LOVE :D Let's do it baby! $_$

I'm now at Episode 210! YAYNESS! hahaha. Season 7! :D
I can feel you glaring at me.... o_o!! RAWR!
I can't help it...it's damn fun! I'm addicted to it..and am going to finish
it all the way to the latest ongoing episode 425? or 428? AH! forgot. :D

He kept the SOTONG in his pants! Surprisingly...he didn't EAT it.
Neither did he felt disgusted. LUFFY hahahahaa.
Christmas is COMING! YAY YAY YAY!! sing with me!
Jingle Bells, Usopp fell, Chopper ran away,
Nami found, a pot of gold, and Luffy saves the day, hey!
Jingle Bells, Usopp fell,Chopper ran away,
Nami found, a pot of gold, and Luffy saves the day. YAY!
Sanji cooks a meal,Zoro is asleep,Robin reads a book,
And Franky sings a song!Until a cannonball,
comes bursting through the wall,then its time to set the sails,
and run from the Marines.Oh- Jingle Bells, Usopp fell,
Chopper ran away,Nami found, a pot of gold,
and Luffy saves the day, hey! Jingle Bells, Usopp fell,Chopper ran away,
Nami found, a pot of gold,and Luffy saves the day- HEY! :D!

Simple things you say,Simple things you do, makes me smile. Hahaha
AH! I haven't get the spinning kick back from you though. :O
So many nights, so many hours. Nights that lasted forever.
I kept thinking that there was someone out there that was meant
for me and all I had to do was find him. Found him.
As I grew older, the fairy tale faded away. Once upon a time became something
I wanted to forget and happily ever after grew to be a myth.
There might just be a person out there made for everyone. And there might not be.
With so many people in the world, how do you know you’ve found the right one?
So many nights, so many hours. Nights that lasted forever. Nights that bore deep into my soul and brought out light I’ve never known existed. I sit wrapped in thoughts of you.
AH! I'm hungry. And it's super late already. -.-CHICKEN :D~

BON VOYAGE! :D hahahaha
I'm reaching my 200th episode soon. YES! hahaha.
School's been a bitch. A MAJOR HUGE BITCH that is.
Don't like it. It's yucky and pui-callicious. Ok. Fine, a word I made up.
Lots of thing's been happening around me. Kids nowadays are behaving
like insolent fools and brats. Bitches to be exact. Yes. Bitches.
Bloody fools. WORST! TWITS ! goodness. Such a disgrace.

Ah, yes yes. Bitches. Hahahaha.
Hello. You don't know me, and I suspect you don't want to,
But I know you, you see. I know all about you. :D
You think you're brilliant, much better than them.
You see a mirror and fall in love again. Awww. so sad.
Sad for the guy. Tsk tsk tsk. You know.....hrmm...
the reflection you see is different to what's there.
If you saw what's real, you'd be less likely to stare. Hah.
As you may have noticed, you may have guessed
I have some different feelings, which aren't the best.
I think you're an arrogant, shallow, manipulating fool,
And I would much rather if your genes were kept out of our pool.
Hahahaa. Such a disgrace. Seriously.You think that your worst
is definitely good enough? To make the rest of us feel like you know your stuff.
It doesn't work, though, we can see through it, and to be honest,
I think that a lot of it's shit. F U C K O F F
Or...the rest of the other dimwits who foolishly got involved with you are dumb too.
Sometimes I feel sorry for you guys....You're just so pathetic.
Bleah. :D Weeee. Okay Whatever.... Not my problem~
ahhhh~ good food always makes me happy. Hahahaha.
BABY DEE will come out whenever I'm done with yummy food.
Food Food Food Food Food! I'm glad that I'm not ruining my taste buds
with high class bullshit. I rather keep it simple. Eggs on toast.
Spaghetti with meat sauce. Cereal in milk. See? Simple. Ramen.
AH! BUFFETS! chicken, chicken, ducks, fishes. sushi. ice-cream! YUM!
Some water......Some chicken... parmesan
A loaf of cinnamon bread......soft cookies and brownie batter
The most delicious things......I'd ever tasted. *DROOLS*
This is mine. This is food for love. Who doesn't love food?! Hahah

Hahaha....yeah. Re watching ONE PIECE. Gosh..and I still have over 300 more
episodes towards the latest episodes right now. -.-
I'm only at 133. x_x Damn funny. Makes me laugh hard. Hahha
Been raining these few weeks. Cooling weather.
Emotions? Me...? Well...there's like ups and down to..within this week itself.
It’s how I am.........I never meant it to hurt like this.
I never wanted this battle.I’ve brought it on myself, for that I know now.
So here I stew in regret......wishing for the days now gone,
So please....damn me for my melancholy,
but see me for my true self.
Miscommunications........Understatements.
Wishful thinking.......ever cut it....nor would budge it.
I was jaded. You and I...? We are bleeding.
You thought I'm conceited, but the truth is
that I'm fighting—never thought it would be for you—don't you?
and the war is just beginning....just the beginning....
Have you ever waked up in the middle of night?
And found yourself with tears on your eyes?
You don’t even know what the dream was about....
Tears in your eyes when I held you in my arms.
You held on tight as I held you.

I woke up to the real Life...hrmmm...well....
with peaceful fantasies, distant memories,
and then.....suddenly....reality stabbed my back with its knife,
Now I realize that there are no similarities. ;)
It's a thing that holds you and whispers as you cry. L O V E

Why does it feel that way?
Why? Because life is cruel. Hrmm....but life doesn't always seem
to bother other people. Hahaha....which is retarded.
They go about, smiling.....don't they have hardships too?
The people who's hardships we notice.....errr...is that of our friends?
they struggle to have wonderful lives.....hahaha....sadly...
they can't seem to reach that....they keep it inside,
not wanting to bother their friends.
They go about, trying to fix, their problems themselves. It's funny.
But yeah. If they're friends...they wouldn't want to bother their friends.
OK fuck, I don't know what I'm talking about. LOL

Maybe somethng like erm.. " I don't want to trouble you" Okay, right.
That make sense. Kinda. I think? Sheesh. Beats me. Heh.
We tell them to tell us, so that way we can help them.
But when they do, our words fail and we realize, we can't help them. -.-
We humans are so useless...... so pathetic....we can't even help,
The people most important to us. It's then we realize,that we also have problems.
We also struggle to live well. Almost as much as our friends. Right?
Why is it like that? Why does life always do that?
Can't we at least help other people,even if we aren't helped?
Hahaha....Well..I always believe..in one thing...first...
Help yourself before you bother or help others.
If you can't save yourself..why the fuck do you even bother to save
someone else..? What's the point of you being dead and in the end..
both lives are at stake? Hrmm...? When we are happy,
We enjoy it. Then we understand, that other people
are going through bad times. How can we be happy then,
if others are suffering. How do we move on, forward,if others can't.

The best thing I can think of,is to be happy as best we can,
and hopefully, if we achieve that...we can spread it to others.
All in all, life still sucks, hahaha. Maybe...to a certain extent.
Feel that way, along with the few exceptions
The few spurts of happiness,that rarely rewards itself to people.
If we aren't suffering, others are,if others aren't, then it is ourselves
that are suffering.When those chances expose themselves to us,
We must hold on to them tightly and give them to our friends
for them to be happy. But what about the one you love?
Push them aside? Is that it...? Why so selfish? The one whom you love
have eyes, feelings, fauith and hope. Whatever it is....we eventually loose it,
the cycle begins again. It keeps circling over and over,
Can our miserable times never end? Nah. It can. If we try harder.

His lips quiver around the words. His nose red, his cheeks pink.
His eyes red. The cars have lost their voice and are
unable to mask the feelings inside them. no one is there to interrupt him
or make him stop midway. But she did anyways.
She kissed him, his tears away, and hugged him tightly.
There she is wide-eyed with wonder until the words
are pushed out with a force so beautiful it hurts her inside
in a good way. 'i love you.'
I love and miss you a lot. Do you know that?








Ps - EH...KOR! Isaac Hiew! hahaha...
Old Teddy! Happy Birthday. :P
I didn't forget your birthday yeah!

A mirage

I seem to have lost momentum. Wasting time counting down the seconds,
minutes, hours, days. But time had slowed down.
Everything appeared to stand still. Living just didn't have meaning
if you weren't by my side. I guess you can call it unhealthy.
How things were, are, and will be.......none of that mattered anymore.
All that mattered was that there was too much clutter
occupying the space between you and I. I wanted that gap to be filled,
and for the distance to be closed. Gosh. Need to work harder.
hrmmm.....it comes unexpectedly, it’s never to be foreseen.
So when it hides inside you.....it leaps beyond your dreams.
Well....I guess.....love, being gone, is yearned for, but love that's
actually here is unknowingly treated as mediocre and just... there.
No fawning over it then.For one, it can be graceful, on the other, it can be harsh.

....Late night come home...Work sucks..I know. :(
That's my part-time boyfriend! SAYANG! Hahahaha.
My bodyguard when I walked home alone late at night. :)
I love her dearly. She's been with me for 2 years already.
Please be safe for me. Haven't been blogging for 2 days.
I guess..some of you guys miss me don't you? LOL :X
Anyways...I can't seem to get to sleep. It's 2.53am right now.
Kept on tossing and turning..and in the end..here I am....blogging.
I'm very tired...but then..I couldn't get to sleep.
I don't like the dream last night....Really don't like it at all.
Let's hope class later will cheer me up a little. Yet still........ -.-

I've been thinkin' about you
And how we used to be then. There's nothing left to say.
Don't waste another day. Its just you and me tonight.
Do you remember? All the fun times we had.
Hrmm.....I don’t have forever and neither do you :)
Tomorrow may never come and I may never have
the chance to say whatever I want to you.
I may never have the chance to hold you in my arms.
God knows. Right...? Hrmm..?
To watch you sleep...to stare in to your eyes
and run my fingers through your hair. Gone.
Sometimes...I feel that...all of our time here is limited
We can’t like simply fuck around and have that much of fun.
Its all together one day and all gone the next.
Well....someday. One day. I can’t just sit back....missing opportunities.
Letting time pass me by. That sucks. Hahahaha. Yeah. BALLS.

So much anger, so much strain. Nothing here.
Life is still worthwhile…life is too short to be crying
It’s hard, but keep on trying.I hope that I will always get to smile.
I won't get that wish though. :) But I can always hope so.
Pardon me.....I've not been smiling much nowadays.
Do you remember?

Every time I try to write..something....
There’s this thought of only you and me. Oh well.
Together, but apart........nothing is the same.
I’ve come to realize that I long for more.
Wanting you in a way that I’ve never desired.
You look at me that day.....you looked like you
were looking for an answer....you were looking for so long
and I knew you wanted the same answer
I wanted from you. :(

Whenever I talk to you....you smile a certain way
you listen to me anxiously to hear what I'm about to say
what does that mean? what are you trying to say
I am certain about one thing in my head,
That is that, I say the word I know are true,
And that is simply from missing you.

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Mama & Daddy gave me a great name,Durran, I’m loving it as much as anyone do, but some people do makes fun of it.Because it sounds like Durian. But,it’s alright,I’m used to it .People call me, Dee, Ran, Rain, Dferina, Dfer, Honey, Dear, Xingyuan, Sadako, Babe, DeeDee & Darling.The only difference on my attitude is the way you treat me. Love me Don't Hate me!

Born in the Year of Tiger, 27th April 1986 I’m a Taurian.I love animals, especially furry ones. But those with feathers and no fur is fine too.

I blog as and when I like, any topic under the sun or moon. You don't like it, So be it, not my problem. Just don't mess with me, for I bite. I'm not joking
If you're not happy with what I blog, it simply means you are not matured & open enough.

Whenever it Rains, It's my Birthday. I love the rain a lot. It makes me feel relax and happy because it washes away all my sadness. Simply just wash away all the pain I have.Eating ice-cream, lots of it helps too. It's a 'bad' habit of mine which actually makes me high and feel better.

I treasure my friends alot.Love ones treasure me like a precious gem. I love them dearly Lastly,To you whom I love very much you'll always be a part of me